The movie 12 Years A Slave was recommended by my
spiritual director, a wise, learned, and deeply spiritual Dominican Sister, who
suggested that I look specifically for the points of grace in the movie. I saw
it with a couple of fellow novices, one a Dominican like myself, and the other
a Franciscan. The setting of the movie was the time of slavery in the US. It
recounts the experience of a free, educated Black man from the North who was
kidnapped and sold into slavery in the South. There he endured 12 brutal and degrading
years under two different masters, until finally a sympathetic White man took
the risk of contacting someone from the North who could vouch for his free
status and take him back home to his family.
At one point in the movie I wept so hard that I had to
stifle the sound of my cries with my scarf. One of his fellow slaves, driven to
complete despair, had begged him to kill her, which he refused to do. She
assured him that he would not go to hell for slaying her because it was merciful,
and God Himself was merciful, but he remained unconvinced. [SPOILER ALERT! Later on he was
forced by the master to beat her with a whip, which he did, because he was
placed in a no-win situation.] Then the most difficult moment: lying face-down
at a table and screaming in pain while the wounds on her back were being
treated, she gazed up at him, her eyes revealing the hideous torment that she
carried in her very soul.
In my time in the novitiate, I have come to an acute
awareness of something profound and true about myself: that in my heart I carry
all the seeds necessary to have become any one of the people in the story,
given the right circumstances - the amoral, the despicable, the victimized, the
hopeless, the one paralyzed by self-interest, the sympathetic, and the courageous.
I think we all do, whether or not we would like to admit it. We are made by God
with a vast capacity for both good and evil. And there but for the grace of God
are we not led into great temptation, for we are weak and feeble against it.
And should evil have knocked at our door and we gave in to it, as it did the
torturous slave masters in the story, would we even be aware of it, except to
see the result of our actions or inactions looking back at us in the eyes of
those we have hurt?
There is a climactic moment too in the Gospel of John,
which helps me to hold both the reality of the cruelty that we are capable of
and God’s immutable and immeasurable love. In John 17, Jesus prays to God out loud, right before He willingly enters into His
Passion. He prays on behalf of His followers for God to protect them in the
Name He had given them, to consecrate them in truth, and to protect them from
the evil one, so that they may be gathered and united in the love that God has
had for Jesus since before the foundation of the world. For me, Jesus’ mission
and vision statements are contained in this prayer. Love is hard, but choose it
anyway; the point is for everyone to grow in love.
In the story, God was paradoxically present to the
slaves and protecting them in that even while they were being tortured and
debased, they did not lose all hope. All of the slaves, as well as those
sympathetic to the abolition of slavery, were consecrated and remained
steadfast in the truth of their dignity and right to freedom. And yes, it took
a long time and many were the casualties, but freedom eventually prevailed.
These are the points of grace. No one but God, Who is the source of them, can
take them away.
How does this apply to our
lives today? Are we able to see the truth of when we oppress and when we are
oppressed? Do we look carefully into the eyes of those who are marginalized, find
mercy in our hearts, and have the courage to help them and those who seek to overturn
the systems that put them in the margins to begin with? Do we speak the truth to
our oppressors with courageous, compassionate, and steadfast hearts? Do we
participate fully in an arduous love that gathers and unites us as one or do we
sit in the sidelines and let injustices continue? In this beautiful world that is
at times difficult to live in, can we get in touch with, and live out of, the
points of grace in our own lives?...for surely, that is where love comes from.
Loved your post, Christina, although I skimmed over the second paragraph and spoiler alert (I want to see the movie but haven't yet.) I especially like your 3rd paragraph and the questions posed. Much food for thought. Thank you!
ReplyDeleteChristina, when first reading your reflection, I asked myself, "Do I really want to see this?" But on the other hand, "Can I afford not to?" Thank you for your words, Chrstina! Margie
ReplyDeleteGreat reflection Christina. I think what struck me most about the story was the lead character's repeated choice for dignity when he and those around him were being treated in an extremely undignified manner. I appreciate the opening into love you have given that choice even when the behavior they endured was anything but love. Thank you!
ReplyDeleteThis is excellent, Christian. I have not been able to go to this movie, not because I couldn't get to the theater, but because I couldn't bring myself to witness it. Though I'm still not sure that I will, I appreciate your words. Thank you! I look forward to seeing you before too very long! Blessings, Pat
ReplyDeleteObviously I can't type! That should read, Christina!! Of course you are a Christian!!
ReplyDeleteChristina: Reading your words reminded me of a section of my all time favorite book "The Saviors of God: Spiritual Exercises" by Nikos Kazantzakis. I hope it adds to the discussion.
ReplyDelete" This vineyard of earth is ours, our own flesh and blood.
We cultivate and prune it, we gather its grapes and tread them, we drink its wine, we sing and we weep, ideas and visions rise in our heads.
In what season of the vineyard has it fallen your lot to work? In the digging? In the vintage? In the feasting? All these are one.
I dig and rejoice in the grapes' entire cycle. I sing as I thirst and toil, drunk with the wine to come."
I go back are re-read this book every few years, as I have done for almost 40 years.
Thanks Christina. This is what I think: God is with us all the time and loves us, and that is grace. We do not have to earn or deserve it; it’s God’s grace.
ReplyDeleteYou asked how it applies to our lives today.
I feel that God is inviting us to grow in love by growing in gratefulness: every moment is an opportunity to
- accept God’s gift of love,
- thank God for God’s grace: gift of love,
- and then share that love with others (showing gratefulness)
In the times of suffering it is difficult, especially when we see or experience evil so closely. We are invited to place our hope in God; not necessarily a physical one but a spiritual hope. With spiritual hope, even when we think that we are alone in something, we are reminded – by God’s Word in the Bible, by the example of Jesus, by the Spirit, and by God through others – that we are not alone: God is with us and loves us. And from that grace, we can gain strengths to bear whatever is happening.
Christina, filmmaking is a form of preaching. I am happy that you learned from this film, and that you are carrying on the preaching through the socail media. Elaine DesRosiers, OP
DeleteBeautiful reflection, Christina!
ReplyDeleteHave not had a chance to see this film yet but after reading your reflection it is number one on my bucket list. Many thanks, Christina. Blessings to you during this Advent Season.
ReplyDeleteMichelle Sherliza, OP - Dominican Sisters of Peace
Watertown, Massachusetts
Just saw the movie, Christina! Powerful and so much to discuss and think about. Again, thanks for your reflection!
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