Thursday, March 21, 2013

Farewell from Alexa

In his Chronicles of Narnia series, C.S. Lewis created a peaceful place called the Wood Between the Worlds. Scattered amid unfolding growth of grass and trees were a series of glistening pools—each leading to a different world. In the story, some children journey to a pool of a ruined magical palace, a pool containing Narnia, and a pool containing modern London. I have come to the realization that I was trying to live in two pools at the same time, and unable to fully live into either. There is the beautiful world of religious life and intimacy in community, and there is the world of fully expressing my art and imagination. In the last few weeks, I have found myself in a place like the peaceful woods, and knowing that I needed to choose which path to continue on. With the help of my community here, and the presence of the Holy Spirit, I have come to the difficult decision of journeying on in a pool different from religious life. I may return to the Wood Between the Worlds in the future, but for now I have a sense of both sorrow and peace that my journey is taking a different road. I thank everyone for their prayers, support, and love during my time of discernment—you will always be with me. Namárië, mellon nin

The Road goes ever on and on
Down from the door where it began.
Now far ahead the Road has gone,
And I must follow, if I can,
Pursuing it with eager feet,
Until it joins some larger way
Where many paths and errands meet.
And whither then? I cannot say.

Still round the corner there may wait
A new road or a secret gate,
And though we pass them by today,
Tomorrow we may come this way
And take the hidden paths that run
Towards the Moon or to the Sun.

— J.R.R. Tolkien

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  1. I know that this must come as a difficult and at times uncertain decision, but I am genuinely happy for us and for you, because the wider world at large will know your talents and work more, and you ARE very, very talented. You will carry the love and support of those you have worked with in your heart and spirit forever, lifting your art and work to greater heights.

  2. Blessings, Alexa, as your journey continues. I trust that our roads will continue to run parallel, criss cross, and maybe even converge in the future. May you and all of your gifts blossom to the full!

  3. It's say's srop is the one commenting. But just so's you know . . . it's me: Pat Farrell. ;-)

  4. You are courageous and deeply cherished by those on both sides of the in peace..and Alexa...may the force be with you! God always calls you exactly where you are to be and I am so proud of you for listening and having the love in your heart to step forth and listen.

    As Always, Blessings , Nan

  5. My prayers are with you, your community and your family.

  6. My thoughts and prayers are with you as you follow your path and your heart. Thank you for sharing your talents with the wider Dominican Family, especially at the DSC Convocation with your Liturgical Dance! peace to you!
    - aneesah